(Sigh) Almost There

Being below working age, and lacking patience for misbehaved kids, my options have been limited regarding how i'm going to raise money for Guatemala. I'm not what you'd call a "craftsy" person so making things to sell is also out of the question. I've had to put my faith to work by just trusting that if God really wants for me to go on this wonderful journey, He'll make a way. So i've sent out tons (and i mean TONS) of letters to family, friends, churches...etc. It's done me pretty well, about $500 or so is due for the trip. The Lord has allowed me to raise nearly all of my money through donations. The funny thing is, during this period in my life, things have been really difficult; i've been fighting my own private battle. It had seemed like a misty fog had clouded my vision and i couldn't see anything more than five feet away. I felt unstable spiritually, like at any moment i'd turn on God. But he's held on to me, and softly whispers my name whenever i go astray. No matter how many times i've tried, i just can't leave him. And like i always say, God will remain faithful, even when we are not.